I attempted to try something " new" during my workout today and I promise I WILL NEVER DO THIS AGAIN! I stuck in a dance tape of Paula Abdul's dance work out (YES Ms. Paula!- I found the tape for $.99 @ Goodwill)- unless you weigh 100lbs and own a large non-carpeted workout studio....run in the other direction of this one!! I was a "Hammer-time wanna be, in the 90's I was jumpin' around like I was crazy- cuz I weighed 150 lbs of MUSCLE... This tape was created in 2000 but she's got a lot of the 1990's dance moves. It was very challenging and I did work up a sweat, much to the delight of my 10 yr old :) Paula advises not to do this if you are on a carpet floor because you could injure your knees and I AGREE. I tried it ANYWAY and my poor knees are tinglin' and swelling as we speak. So pass on Paula. :)
I also did a little of Billy Blanks BASIC TAE-BO and it wasn't' too bad. I'm not jumping up and down, I'm keeping it very low-impact but I found it a nice challenge. I also bought several in his series the 8 minute workout, the Kickboxing (I think it's kickboxing or something similar), and a few others. I 'm going to start with the Basic and go at my own pace... I will not be intimidated by the 97 lb folks jumpin and sweatin' behind him. I am 300 lbs and I'd like to think I've learned that I'm not "twinkle-toes" anymore :)
I overdid it a little when eating today, but not as bad as I usually would. I made Gumbo with Shrimp, Sausage, Crabmeat and Chicken- it was spicy and delicious and normally I would have eaten a bowl every time I passed the pot, but I managed to only eat two bowls between 5 p.m and 10 p.m. Now the sweet-potato pie is a little different :) I started with a "sliver w/ whipped cream at 4 p.m. and then a regular slice w/whipped cream at 6p.m , then a "mmmm good slice" at 10:30 p.m. I know I've got to stop eating after 8 p.m. but I'm not gonna freak out over it today. The positive part is that I didn't overeat as much as I normally would because in the past I would have eaten at least 6 bowls of Gumbo, and at least 6 slices of "mmmmm good" pie :0 I'll take the small victories where I can find them. :)
Hope all of you had a fantastic day also! Let me know how your first day of 2008 went!
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First of all, I'd like to commend you on your eating efforts. We will make mistakes, but as you stated, you didn't eat six bowls. So I'm proud of you. Because money has been so tight for me, I've actually been making my food stretch. I had "Popeyes" left over from the other day & I made it last til today. I also had a big bowl of "oreo" ice cream (one of my favorite desserts; the other two are "pillsbury choc chip cookie dough & cheesecake(jello no-bake. I was full after I had the breast, leg & half of a wing, slaw & two biscuits. I realized the ice cream was there, so I kept waiting for my stomach to feel less full, so I could fix a bowl(crazy huh? I do that often). I then laid down & I'm just waking up, I caught the ITIS!
I'm scheduled to go back to the factory job Jan 7th. I've been praying, but I can only be honest w\h you b\c I feel we have this connection. God brings people into our lives for a reason. My faith isn't as strong as it used to be b\c I feel like such a failure. I'm afraid to write this b\c I feel somewhat ashamed, but God knows my thoughts before they enter my head. I find that my prayers seem to be the same when I'm talking to God, almost to where it seems like a memorized script. I want to find my faith and reassurance once again b\c it used to be SO STRONG. God has always given me my heart's desire, but in the last 3 or 4 years, I feel as though nothing has worked out for me. I know God hasn't forgotten me, but I wonder if he feels that I'm not doing my part for him? I haven't been a regular in church for awhile. Whenver I do go, I ALWAYS come out feeling so good! I was going to my cousin's church, but his church doesn't have a choir and I need the music in church b\c it touches my heart. He may sing a song or the secretary will stand up front w\h her keyboard & sing songs that I've never heard of. I'm not knocking the church b\c my cousin is an excellent minister. I love to hear his word, but he's a black preacher in a white church & it just seems as though he doesn't wanna disrupt the way the way the people were running the church before he became a minister there.
The people are good to him there, so that's what's important.
I'm to scared to visit other churches alone b\c people tend to stare whenever someone new visits their church & I just wanna feel welcome when I go somewhere.
As far as trying to get something done while I'm off work, well, I have only mailed off one resume & done one interview. No one will call me for an interview b\c I only have factory experience. I should have been doing some volunteer work or job shadowing, but I've been laid off during the holidays & I didn't think anyone would want to be bothered. The job I interviewed for only starts me out making $21,000 per year. I don't see how I'd survive off of that. These days the only way to get a job is if you know someone. I'm trying to get back in school b\c nothing seems to be happening for me w\h my Communications degree. I wish I could work as an event coordinator, w\h a black magazine, Oprah or something exciting like that or my dream job would be to host a HGTV show. I live in a small city in TN & the jobs are few & scarce. I'm considering moving to Nashville, TN. I'm so scared to move. I worry alot like my mama. It makes me wonder if that's why God hasn't blessed me w\h kids. I feel he hasn't blessed me w\h kids b\c he knows how bad my relationship was w\h my ex. I have endometriosis and I haven't had the money to see my specialist lately, I hope everything is going to be fine b\c I really want to carry a healthy life inside of me one day ( please keep my health in your prayer).
I understand wanting to look good, so everyone will notice for graduation, it's nothing wrong w\h that and if your ex happens to notice, then that's just an added bonus! LOL!
Keep up the hard, but attainable work Rhonda. God Bless!
Hi Shameeka!
I am so SURE that God has linked us together!!! When reading your posts... it's ME all over again!:) Girl YOU love POPEYE'S too?!!! THAT is my downfall!!! :) I am originally from New Orleans (N'Awlins) and Popeyes is like an extension of my kitchen! I have to work REALLY hard to stay away from there, cuz when I start... it's on! I've got to confess that before I went to bed last night (this morning at 2 a.m.) I gave in and ate 4 more deviled eggs and 1 1/2 turkey burgers- I'm not trippin' over that though, because I'm KNOWN to do worse than that. I'm focusing on what I'm NOT doing instead of what I AM doing in the area of overeating. I do love me some ice-cream too, but I'm learning to enjoy the soy ice-cream which is expensive so it's a luxury for me once in a blue moon, but it's also pretty good. Try experimenting with a few flavors, it healthier for us and because of the cost... it teaches us to learn to enjoy a "smaller portion" to keep it around longer;)
As for the 3-4 year struggle, I feel you on that. I have also been in the battle for about that long. My marriage was crumbling due to my husband trying to hide he was a peeping tom and my trying to make the world think he was sorry for what he had done and he really wanted to change and THAT was why I was staying with him. When in reality, I couldn't accept the fact that I was in a miserable relationship that was unhealthy for me and my daughter who was not biologically his.
His family initially was supportive to me, but when I tried to get him to go to counseling they turned on me and basically called me the devil for wanting to "reveal" secrets that no on talked about (cheating, peeping,abuse etc.) One day after my doctors told me for a few years that my stress caused my weight gain which could ultimately lead to my death, I woke up and decided that my life was more important that what other people thought of me so... I walked away from my marriage, and the world I had built in the other state, and moved to Texas with my child and my dog.
I cried all the way here because I didn't know what to expect but I KNEW it couldn't possibly be any worse than what I had lived through for the past 4 years. I began my faith-walk. I knew God would not fail me and my needs would be met better than I could ever expect. I started with nothing but a mustard seed sized faith that it would get better and trust me... it's not been an easy ride but then again, He didn't say it would be... but I can guarantee you it has been better since I let go and Let God.
I've made several notes to discuss some things you mentioned but right now I'm pressed for time, my daughter has an appt. we need to leave for right now. I will be in touch with you this evening.
God gave me this to tell you, TRY!..Send your resume to places you never thought you'd be accepted. Why? Because we hold ourselves back when we THINK we know the end result. God is the Omnipotent Almighty and He can open doors to places we never dreamed would be for us but that's because we have no idea of the riches He has in store for us IF we ACT ON FAITH. So what if you get a few rejections, those are just the warm up to see if we really want what He has for us. We must be rejected so when HE puts us in the amazing place he wants us to be in...we are that much more thankful that those other places turned us down! Try some black radio stations, they are always in the market for event co-ordinators. Start locally then you will create a network that will help you to position yourself for where God wants you to be!
A move may be necessary or maybe not talk to Him and see what He has planned for you. When you catch yourself worrying -->Stop right there and give it to God, then tell Him, you have the faith to believe HE WILL WORK IT OUT FOR YOUR GOOD!
Be Blessed!
Rhonda
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