I slipped up!

I did pretty well today, I managed to hang in there during the instructional video for Billy Blanks Tae-Bo and even worked up a pretty good sweat. But... I got a little discouraged when I went to J.C.Pennys and tried on a size "20" only to find the button and the button hole "weren't even in the same state!" My muffing top was in FULL EFFECT!!... so I just sat and "talked to it while looking in the mirror. I told it- it HAD TO GO. My daughter was trying to tell me "it's not THAT bad, but God love her :) she does her best to cheer me up when it comes to "Belly-Bashing" :)

I also allowed anxiety over money to creep in and take over a portion of my thoughts and when I got home... AFTER my daughter went to bed, I waited until 1:30 a.m. to eat a bowl of Gumbo and 2 slices of "mmmm good sweet potato pie". Notice how I can't just call it Pie...it's SO good (cuz I make it myself) so I call it "mmmmm good pie!" :) BUT ... I DIDN'T eat the last two deviled eggs. I caught myself trying to talk myself into eating them, but I touched the muffin top, and told it... it wouldn't win. I'm getting better at forgiving myself for a few slip-ups. I think if I would go to bed at a decent hour that I would have a higher success rate.

I have noticed I am an emotional eater, when I get anxious about anything... I EAT. I eat for other reasons but anxiety seems to be the trigger for a lot of unnecessary eating. I know that I have got to take my hands off the financial issue because I'm so excited to watch Him show the nonbeliever trying to block my blessing simply because she "doesn't like me"... God has already told me, "It's going to be alright" so with His unfailing word, I will go to bed and REST knowing that money will NOT be an issue! It's 2:45 a.m. right now and I've developed a progressively worse sleep pattern but I plan to work on that too!

I hope we all learn to love ourselves as we are, flaws and "fabulous-ness" we are bless through it all.!!

Take care,

Rhonda