I'm still the only one

Well, this is admittedly discouraging that no one has checked in with my blog for several days. I miss hearing from my one buddy that did leave me a message, but... oh, well. I haven't checked in myself for a few days. I completely fell off the wagon after my financial aid came in. I ate fast food cuz I was out buying furniture for my house from craigslist members. I got great deals but I have spent a LOT of money ( well, a lot for me). I stressed over spending money on furniture instead of filing bankruptcy like I planned to. I'm stressing because I have spent more that $14.00 (way more) so... that triggered the overeating binge and now I 've got a fridge full of Popeyes chicken!!

It's hard to admit that I fail a little everyday BUT it's even HARDER looking in the mirror and seeing more stomach than I had when my daughter was STILL IN IT!! This is a HARD fight and I feel that I must go into prayer and fasting over it. I'm not knowledgeable about fasting but I know in order to break through something that is binding me up, that I must be willing to sacrifice something that means a lot to me and it seems like MEAT is my greatest temptation, especially when it is FRIED- so maybe I'll give THAT up . I don't know... maybe I'll give it up AFTER I finish off the box (shoot, I paid 20.00 for all that chicken and lovely mashed potatoes)

I'm so bad sometimes :) I WANT to lose the weight but I keep letting fast-food win! I have ordered a DVD that comes with the workout ball, I want to see if going really low-impact will make a difference. Although I plan to switch it up some with dancing, Tae-Bo, and the Big Ball workout. My goal is to lose weight... I'll figure it out as I go. Now that I've spent all my money, I can't afford to go to Curves (maybe subconsciously I SPENT all my money on PURPOSE so I COULDN'T go to Curves! HMMMmm- that sounds like something I would do to sabotage my chances of success). I don't know why I continually stand in my own way.

Well, since I'm the only one on this blog... I'll work my way through this on my own. Maybe seeing all of this is print will be my catalyst for change.

Peace